Each night, I took my meds, propped myself up comfy on several pillows, and drifted away to sleep with the chorus in my thoughts: "I Cast All My Cares Upon You". I literally felt as if next thing I knew, I might be zooming through the clouds and past the stars, to heaven.
And not wake up again, here on earth.
I came to terms with it. I would see Jesus, and forever unlimited adventures! My dad is there. My niece is there. Other loved ones would no doubt join us before long. And Jesus, my Savior, is there!
I spent nearly a year feeling as if I was on death's doorstep. I was physically disabled to the point of feeling as if I did not want to live in a body that did not work.
Back here on earth, my husband gripped my hand tightly all night. If I woke during the night, he was still holding my hand. He has never done that before, ever. Now that I'm recovered, he doesn't do it anymore. I'm back to being independent me.
But I remember the experience of being helpless, and vulnerable.
I think Canada, and other countries with euthanasia policies in place, are doing their people a great wrong. Instead of encouraging fellow human beings when they need support, these policies exploit the vulnerable in the most tragic way possible. Where would the secular world be without Steven Hawkins? He was a brilliant disabled person who survived several decades past a normal life expectancy for someone with his physical limitations. In the community of faith, where would we be without Joni Erickson Tada?
Who is to say which disabled person will not go on to change the world in powerful, and unique ways? No human being should be cast aside, as if they have no value. There is great value, in working together to give everyone purpose, realizing the potential impact of each one's individual unique life force, on the world.
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